My House & My Kids

Thanks to all of you wonderful supportive step moms who took the time to give me such advice and encouragement. We all know that some days the demons catch up. I do have to say that I have been lucky that my honey has given me total control over decorating and landscaping. I have to confess that I felt a small victory as I ripped her favorite rose bush from the ground (I know how childish that sounds, but let me have my moment). I am in the process of redoing the backyard. The sucky part is she has good taste and I do like a lot of what she’s done.

I know that I need to remember to keep things in perspective. It has to be hard on her too, even though she deserves it and brought it all on herself (oops did I say that out loud?). I know when the kids go to see her they talk about me and the things we do. It has to be hard to see another woman raising your kids. If I’m home and she comes to pick up the kids she won’t set foot in the house (she even hurried the kids out one day cause she had to use the restroom and wouldn’t do it here). I know that this is because she’s uncomfortable (she is a very insecure person); I’m the women living in her house…who has taken over the role she walked out on. So on my bad days when I feel like I’m just the fill in I have to remember I’ve cast my own shadow in which she now has to walk in.